uncertainties

i left school with maybe a semester and a half worth of classes to go before i could have graduated. i had taken most if not ll of my core education classes and all of the art classes. of the education side of my major i had only taken those classes that only took me away from the kids for only a couple hours. before moving to san diego i did get into the classroom after being graded on the lesson plan that i wrote- i now was being graded on teaching the lesson to a real high school art class. what a flop! although I can draw and paint and sculpt clay and take, develop, and matt photos- i could NOT teach a group of high schoolers how to do it.
so i'm a little concerned. i want to be a midwife. just because I can have babies doesn't mean I can help others do so- and be good at it. and do i really want to spend money and time away from my husband and kids before I can find that out about myself?
it could be like the art class. i had them all sitting around an still life drawing it. they were clearly not looking at the same object. I could say nothing but, "just DRAW the object".
i'm not sure it would help if i walked around and said, "just HAVE the baby."